Grace

Naturally, we are inclined to be so mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We imagine that we have to reach some end, but that is not the nature of spiritual life.
The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty; consequently we do not make our nests anywhere. Common sense says--"Well, supposing I were in that condition...” We cannot suppose ourselves in any condition we have never been in.
Certainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness; it should be rather an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. Immediately we abandon to God, and do the duty that lies nearest, He packs our life with surprises all the time. When we become advocates of a creed, something dies; we do not believe God, we only believe our belief about Him. Jesus said, "Except ye...become as little children." Spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, but uncertain of what He is going to do next. If we are only certain in our beliefs, we get dignified and severe and have the ban of finality about our views; but when we are rightly related to God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy.
"Believe also in Me," said Jesus, not--"Believe certain things about Me." Leave the whole thing to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come. Remain loyal to Him.

Taken from: My Utmost for His Highest By: Oswald Chambers

In order to be happy in life ("free") be a genuine optimist. This includes my attending "real" college, which my mom herself never did, where I can listen to self-rightous professors drone on in the pervaiding anti-God theories of the moment, which they readily embrace, out of their own personal denial. So then I can graduate probably by this time with an STD (I was encouraged to test the water out first) and slave for a lifetime to pay off my pesky student loans as I attempt to discover value in the shallowness of my next-to-useless degree, which if I'm lucky, I can use to move nowhere and change nothing, more help furthur perpetuate the vicious cycle of money, greed, fashism, and triviality, not to forget sprinkled with a smidge of completely overwhelming godless materialism.
Then as I get my boring and useless job, so I can join the rat race, I will live in an empty world of constant perpetual anxiety, working for an untidy group of little fashists. As I endeavor to find contentment in my possessions I am violently thrown into a deep pit of credit card debt, but mainly due in part to my ongoing plastic surgery, but I of course need and deserve it, so my Cosmo says.
Eventually I will die due to my over emphasis of the Atkins diet, recommended and highly hinted at by my unloving husband, however this caused my eventual heart failure, but in my death I will escape the unhappy marriage I once entered thinking I could flee from some of the unmerciful pressures of my self-centered life, ...and as I'm on my way strait to hell, well at least I can remember that I never once had to look into the face of poverty, I merely took a constant gaze into the empty mirror which was my life and hid behind some lostsense of drugs, alcohol, and my semi-fancy suburb life.
And this was me, the future of America, and in this "great" nation it is almost best fitting as a college student before I begin this crazy trip called life, that I drop acid as to furthur ignore the truth, why not? is it not fashionable?) -simply put, hehe. Certainly this life as a result of taking my mothers advice is one filled with the love and freedom. How can it not be, after her extensive study and embrace of eastern religion -China is loving and free right?

Written by my good friend Minnette Bunnell (used with her permission)